just leave me alone!

i'm not a very friendly person. well i am actually but only to those who i'm comfortable with and the ones who i called 'friends'. wah tiba-tiba opening macam tu. ok lah, bagi mukadimah dulu ye. you know how sometimes you are not in the mood to entertain anyone and you just wished that they left you alone? give you some space?

well, honestly speaking saya selalu rasa macam tu (di sesuatu tempat itu tapi tak boleh beritahu kat sini!) especially if i'm so stressed out and after a long tiring hours at work, i just wanna do my own thing in my own space. i seriously don't give a damn to whatever going on around me. i don't pay attention at all. i usually put on some music and listen to it with full volume so that i won't hear people talking and laughing (which is sometimes annoying). yes, i know i can be a selfish brat but that's who i am. i'm not there to be friendly, i'm not there to be nice and i am definitely not there to chit chat with a bunch of people i don't even know. i don't pretend to be nice so that people will like me. in fact i am comfortable if people there don't talk to me or even say hi to me. pelik tak saya?

there's this one person who was always in the mood to talk and chat with me but he's getting on my nerves! malas nak layan! like i said i'm not there to be friendly. sebab si mamat sengal ini, i had to put on a face (my muka masam dan sombong memanjang macam ala-ala kejam!) whenever i'm at that place. i was hoping he would get the 'look here dude, i know you just doing your job but please...stay away from me!' signal but damn! sampai sekarang dia macam nak beramah mesra. i always ignore him. won't even look at him even if i knew he just stands a few inches away from me. rimas tau rasa! macam nak buat restraining order je. ok that was a bit exaggerating lah kan tapi serious rasa lemas dan rimas. kalau nampak dia dari jauh, akan avoidlah bumped into him! see, betapa scarynya saya siap terpaksa cari another route walaupun jauh tapi sanggup.

there's this one time when i was doing my thing dia menyibuk nak termampus siap ketuk bahu saya nak cakap sesuatu. i was wearing my headset at the time so i just looked at him sambil meninggikan kepala gaya bertanya 'nak apa?'. he asked me to take off the headset for a while (walaupun macam nak ignore je kan tapi still ada hati perut) so i took it off lah kan. dia cakap 'akak ada perasan sesuatu tak tadi'. then i replied 'perasan tapi malas nak layan' and straight away put back on my headset mampus kau nak terasa ke apa. i know it's mean and rude but i couldn't help it. he's soooo crossing the line siap nak ketuk bahu nak bersembang. pffttt!

STOP BUGGING ME!!!

you know what i mean right? yes? no? ok, i'm just babbling! please read, BABBLING. tengah merepek sorang-sorang.


footnote : ye, penting jaga hubungan sesama manusia tapi kalau dia sendiri yang merosakkan hubungan itu sapalah saya untuk menjaganya! ;p oh btw, you don't even know what's going on tapi takpe i thanked you for giving me advice. but it would be nice if i know who's the one giving the advice kan. cuma terfikir kenapa ye nak menasihati tapi nama pun kurang manis? lebih manis kalau nama itu adalah HAMBA ALLAH. ok just bagi pendapat, tak salah kan ;)