sadness on raya eve

i'll probably spend my first week of raya in a hospital.
my grandma got admitted in HUKM a few days ago.
she fell down and broke her leg.
she was supposed to undergo operation yesterday.
but it was postponed to today because she was having low blood pressure.
however, the doctor said that she was too weak to undergo an operation.
her body refuses the treatment that the hospital gave her.
it seem that the doctor will treat her without operation.
an alternative beside the operations.
but it kinda took longer time to heal.
and there's always risk.

today, i visited her in the hospital.
and i cried.
i cried when i see her conditions.
it was just so sad.
i haven't cried that hard since the other day i remembered my other arwah nenek.
syukur, nenek still remembers me.
that's a relief.
i avoid speaking to any of my relatives for a while.
i can't really speak.
there are no words left to speak.

i really hope that she will get better.
i prayed for her to be better than ever.
i just lost one grandma 2 years ago.
i am not prepared to lost another one.
yeah, i know.
no one can predict when one is dying.
but truly, not right now.
please...just not right now.

ucapan aidilfitri

lu pekak ke ape?

PS: Mind the language in this post.
This post was written when I was really pissed off like hell this evening.

lu dah tau wa nak kuar.
yang lu pergi block kereta wa pehal.
lu macam tak nampak wa jalan ke kereta wa.
waktu nak buka puasa memang silap la lu wat wa angin satu badan.
wa hon, punya hon.
lu boleh sedap duduk dalam kereta.
adalah gak 10x wa hon.
pekak ke apa lu ni?
serius.
wa macam rasa lu pekak gila.
orang tepi jalan dah pandang-pandang wa.
sebab hon tapi takde respons.
bikin wa panas la.
rasa macam nak langgar je kereta lu tu.
ade wa kesah?
janji hati wa puas.
geram sesangat.

nasib baik bulan puasa.
wa dah kira baik dah tak bagi middle finger kat lu.
wa bagi je jelingan maut tahap dewa kat lu.
dan lu boleh keluar dari kereta lu.
terkejut tengok kereta wa nak kuar.
gampang namanya tu.

it could be worst tau.
kalau la masa tu wa ikut emosi.
tentu wa dah turunkan tingkap.
sambil sumpah seranah *#&%$!* kat lu.
masa tu wa tak kesah la lu hansem ke, lu putih melepak ke.
janji biar kita dua sakit hati.
lu sakitkan hati wa.
biar wa sakitkan hati lu dengan maki hamun wa.
sekalipun lu nak cepat kuar duit.
pikirlah pasal orang lain gak.
bodoh!

shopping spree

Today, my family and I did what we do best...SHOPPING!!!
Haha.
We shopped at KLCC (sebab my mom ada vouchers ISETAN okay, not because I'm rich or what!)

For me alone:
Liz Claiborne Handbag - RM200
Britney Spears's 50ml Fantasy Midnight Perfume - RM184
Dorothy Perkins 2 Jeans - RM182
Twins Shoe - RM70

For my dad:
Polo Black Perfume Set - RM270
Bonia T-Shirt - RM140

For my second sister, Eqah:
Britney Spears's 50ml Fantasy Midnight Perfume - RM184
(she wasn't there, tu yang dia dapat 1 item je...hahaha!)

For my sister, Meera:
Britney Spears's 50ml Fantasy Perfume - RM184
Shirt - RM60
shoelover Shoe - RM99

For my mom:
2 shoes - RM140
2 Liz Claiborne handbags - RM250
F by Ferragamo Perfume - RM200
H Bedsheet - RM100


Spending my mom's money sesuka hati - Priceless!
Wahahaha...

what a week!

Friday, 19th September 2008
That evening, the ladies in OAS (cewah!) had our shopping spree in Mydin (jalan kaki je dari office) for tonight's events.
We bought sejadah, stationaries and some food for the kids.
OASians (reka je nama tu) had our buka puasa near our Director's house in Bandar Tun Hussein Onn, Cheras.
In community hall to be exact.
Together with 26 anak yatim from nearby area.
My first time ever spending with orphans during Ramadhan.
I was happy to be there.
We did the 8 rakaat solat terawih there too.
Berpeluh masing-masing kat dewan tu.
Hehe.
Sedikit tazkirah after that.
Then, upacara menberi sumbangan pada anak-anak yatim.
And of course, I was part-time cameraman (or woman) during the event.
They look quite happy and pleased with the gift received.
Ada yang dapat baju raya (this one was gave by another group)


Saturday, 20th September 2008
Me and ummu has signed up to be apart of the event.
We drove to Senaling, Negeri Sembilan to be involved in Ramadhan bersama fakir miskin dan anak yatim.
We (kereta Encik Misdan, En Rahishan and me) gathered in Giant, Senawang before meeting up with Encik Zahar.
Had our Zohor prayer in Masjid Yam Tuan Raden in Senaling.
This event was also a cooperation with PAS Dun Senaling (think about the ibadat rather than the politic okay!)
Then, we were divided into three groups as there were three areas to be covered.
Average of 15 houses in each area.
We followed En Rudy and Megat (OASians) to give some sumbangan (hamper, beras and duit) in area Senaling.
We went from house to house dropping the gift.
For a while, I did felt a bit of in a Bersamamu TV programme.
Huhu.
I can't bear seeing the elder living alone.
It reminds me of my arwah nenek.
There was one particular house that we visit.
Which really touched me deep inside.
The gradma was living alone in a part of a house.
The house was burnt down years ago.
The only piece that were saved was the kitchen.
The kitchen basically the size of my small kitchen.
That is where she sleeps, she eats, she baths...everything there!
Basically, the bed, the washing machine, the fridge, the sink was all in a same room.
It almost brought me to tears.
I wanted to give more money to her.
Unfortunately I don't bring cash at the time.
I am a very sensitive person.
That's the main reason why I avoid watching Bersamamu.
To be apart of two amazing events was quite extraordinary experiences.

weirdo

got tagged by Fatin Diana.
here's the answer for it.

State 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself :

1) get bored easily, tak kisahlah dengan sesiapa or apa pun!

2) will usually end up buying something even though plan nak window shopping je.

3) rimas dengan orang yang tak habis-habis nak tanya every 5 minutes.

4) tak pernah beli handbag dengan duit sendiri. it's either using my mom's or my sister's bag!

5) must have vegetables dalam dishes hari-hari. (wa tak boleh kalau tiada sayur)

6) addicted to spicy food. kalau tak pedas, rasa tak kick la!

7) tak berapa suka chocolate cake. prefer cheese cake!

8) i'm a reckless driver.

9) pemalas is my middle name.

10) i am no conversation starter. (pemalu bangat!)

11) suka berjalan, tak suka duduk terperap kat rumah.

12) my ambitions changes all the time. sekejap nak jadi lecturer, sekejap nak jadi housewife...hahah!

13) tak suka dipaksa and di tengking-tengking (wa boleh mengamuk ooo)

14) i wish to drive a Ferrari but not owning it! (sebab tau tak mampu...hahaha)

15) my wish is to relax all the time (tak suka dengan ke-tension-an)

The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts :

sesiapa yang dah takde kerja macam saya ni, silalah isi masa lapang anda dengan tag ini ye...

blackout (pinjam title idyani)

no, it was not the same as idyani's post.
even though the title post was the same.
but i really mean blackout.
darkness.
totally black.
wait...did i hear something??
like something crunchy?
oooh, well that just my cat, Lulu eating on her food.
silence.
OMG.
i hear someone chewing on food.
ooh ok, that was me having my buka puasa in the dark.
due the black out.
darn it!

this is my first time having candle light dinner with my loved ones yesterday.
or should i say 'candle light break-fasting'.
that would be more precise.
it came as a surprise though.
thanks to TNB for the help they gave us.
couldn't done it without them.
LOL!

berbuka di Mines Resort

Buka puasa di Mines?
Yippee...
Asal buka di hotel saja, saya gumbira!
LOL!

It was a last minute decision actually.
Wasn't planning to go pun.
But then fahmi said there 4 empty seat left.
Then, we decided to go lah. (fahmi, kak effa, zida and me)
Joined ummu and ayu there.
They were having workshop over there.
Kami jemputan yang datang hanya untuk makan.
Memeriahkan majlis bak kata orang.
Hahaha!
Lagipun, the company paid for it maa...
Kami ni tidak mahu ikut perangai syaitan.
Yang suka membazir.
Tu yang kami pergi je...
We basically saved the day!
*wink*


The food was good...NOT!
Hotel Istana is way much better.
And I really mean much much better!
The place was small.
Orang bersesak-sesak nak ambil makanan.
But thumbs up to the view.
It was breathtaking.
Near the lake with beaches (man-made by the way)